Well, I survived tax season. It was a long 3 months with no days off, but it was a successful season!! And......I'm glad it's over!!!
I also survived, or should I say , am surviving ( still) shoulder surgery. It has been 5 months, and I can honestly say that I am not at 100% but I have been released from physical therapy.... not sure that makes any sense, but hell, what do I know, right??? It was the absolute most painful 5 months of my life, and I have been hating every minute of it. My range of motion is at about 85% to 90% and I am still having pain on a daily basis.....it has been a long slow process but I am improving everyday!!
I'm not sure if you remember, but I was supposed to rehab my knee while doing rehab on the shoulder, uhhhhh , not so much..... The knee has not responded to rehab and sooooooo tomorrow, it's back into surgery for this girl. Knee surgery, that is. Doc thinks I may have a chondral tear, and I'm looking at at least another 2-4 months of therapy and no running......Once it's all said and done, I will have taken a 9-10 month hiatus from all forms of cardiovascular exercise/ running.....and my body and mind hates it!! I have gained 5-7 pounds and my butt is wider than ever!! Just in time for bathing suit season ( lovely!!) All those months of running, where I worked up to a whopping 8.5 miles and my butt was the smallest it had been since college, gone, down the drain, kapoosh, done.....may even have to purchase one of those bathingsuit bottoms that have a skirt attached to cover the rear!!!.....uggghhhh
I knew the drastic affects that NOT exercising/running would have on my body ( although I can't say I was prepared for it, nor am I happy about it), but I could have never imagined the affect it would have on my mind ( happiness, attitude, mood)....WOW!!! I thought it would be great to have an excuse not to exercise, to be lazy.....but it has been really hard for me. I have even verged on depression a bit ( although I have always had the mindset that I should just put on my big girl panties and just deal with things and that depression could never really happen to me).These have been some of the unhappiest months in my life and all because I can't exercise!! I now know that I will NEVER take exercising/running for granted again. If given the chance to get out there and get going again, I will jump (literally) at that chance!!
I crave the stress release, the energy, the "high" of exercising. I miss the sweat, heavy breathing, voice of my runkeeper, the recording of my miles, and the shopping for new running clothes ( lol)!!!
I have slowly watched my body turn to flab and really haven't been able to do anything to change it!! There is nothing worse that wanting to do somthing so badly and not being physically able to do it. With a bum knee and shoulder at the same time, there is really no exercise I have been able to do!! swimming would have been great with the knee injury, but I couldn't stroke with my shoulder. Running, elliptical, and even biking would have been fine for the shoulder, but the knee said noooooooooo......
I head into knee surgery tomorrow with as positive an outlook as I can have at this point. I will start rehab as quickly as possible and hopefully, if all goes as planned, I will be hitting the pavement again in 2-4 months.
Until then, I am back in bloggy world, reading your post, applauding your accomplishements from the sidelines and as always.......wishing you......